I am about to go off on a rather self indulgent rant and I am not sure how much sense it will make to anyone but here I go…
I’ve always used my own body for most of the nudes I paint, this started for purely practical reasons…..but I never dared to paint a self portrait of my own face, that is until last year, and since then I just can’t seem to stop.

More recently I’ve been delving into the realm of double portraits, shifting my focus from trying to capture the essence of an individual, beauty, identity and image to trying to capture moments of duality, interactions and a sense of otherness. So why am I still using myself?
Artists and musicians choose subjects which are of primary concern and importance to them, whether this is love, nature, architecture or politics. I think that painting or making art or music in general is an expression of self – is an attempt, not necessarily conscious to create something which reflects and illustrates our internal landscape. I realized that mine is mainly based on feeling rather than intellectual, practical or physical concerns. I live in a sea of constantly shifting emotions surrounded by a strange sense of mysticism – I’m constantly aware of minute unspoken moments between people, the emotion of which I often find quite overwhelming. I sometimes feel a bit like an emotional sponge. There is a melancholy, a sadness and a yearning for beauty and perfection but not always in a negative sense – often in a quite beautiful one.
I think it is that mixture of overwhelming emotion which I am trying to express through my art – and so it makes sense for me to use my own face and body as a way of doing so, and if that means I am completelyegocentric then I suppose I’ll just have to come to terms with that.

05th Nov 2011